Chrissy Teigen is pushing through emotional and physical pain as she begins to heal, after suffering a devastating miscarriage 20 weeks into her pregnancy in September.
While the model has been open about her heartbreak following the loss of her son Jack, she updated her 32.2 million followers about slowly getting back on her feet.
‘When I’m old and grey, I will look back on the last two months as being brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, mentally painful b**ches of a couple months,’ she captioned a Instagram shot of herself all bundled up at home.
Healing: Chrissy Teigen is working through her emotional and physical pain as she grieves the the loss of son Jack, after suffering a miscarriage 20 weeks into her pregnancy
Nodding to her funny blue dog socks, furry black cloak and choice to wear shades inside, she joked will always ‘find humor in both the rage-fits and the outfits.’
On a more serious note, the best-selling cookbook author, who shares Luna, four, and two-year-old Miles with husband John Legend, described how her grief had distorted her perception of the world and ability to perform everyday activities.
‘I already see the leaves as orange instead of grey, realized the sky is indeed blue and not black,’ she noted. ‘And horn honks on my forced morning walks only bring me to my knees half the time.’
Devastating: While the model has been open about her heartbreak following the loss of her son Jack, she updated her 32.2 million followers about slowly getting back on her feet
She continued: ‘I can make it up my stairs only stopping once or twice instead of every other, and can get out of the bathtub all by myself as long as I have the promise john will dry me off.’
In conclusion, Teigen wrote, ‘I think it’s happening,’ in reference to finding her way toward healing.
Her post comes just days after she and Legend spoke about their decision to share intimate and gut-wrenching images of their miscarriage and their ‘complete and utter grief.’
The couple lost their unborn baby boy after the writer suffered a month of bleeding as a result of a weak placenta.
Losing Jack: Her post comes just days after she and Legend spoke about their decision to share intimate and gut-wrenching images of their miscarriage and their ‘complete and utter grief’
Hours after losing their baby, both Chrissy and John, 41, shared a series of black-and-white photos from the hospital on social media. And while the singer admits he was ‘worried’ about documenting such an agonizing moment, he praised his wife’s ‘courage’, noting that their decision to speak out so publicly ‘meant so much to so many people’.
‘I didn’t know that we could experience this grief and also share it, but when we did, it really meant so much to so many people and it was such a powerful experience for me to learn that, and I’m just grateful that my wife was courageous enough to do it,’ John explained in an interview with GMA‘s Michael Strahan.
John took many of the images shared in their social media posts, one of which shows Chrissy sobbing while sitting in her hospital bed.
Another snap captures the devastated spouses cradling their baby’s body.
In memory: John took many of the images shared in their social media posts, one of which shows Chrissy sobbing while sitting in her hospital bed. Another captures the devastated couple cradling their baby’s body
‘I was worried, I was like, I don’t want to commemorate this pain. But the crazy thing about having a miscarriage is you don’t walk away with anything, you have this emptiness, and we wanted to take the photos so we had something to remember him by.’
Chrissy hit out at critics of the photos, insisting that she ‘doesn’t care’ about anyone who was ‘offended or disgusted’ by them because they were only ever intended to provide comfort to others who have experienced a similar loss.
‘I don’t care if you were offended or disgusted. I understand it could be that way for people, [but] it’s designed for the people that were hurting,’ she said, despite noting that ‘John was very uncomfortable taking them’.
Heart-wrenching: Chrissy recently hit out at critics of the photos, insisting that she ‘doesn’t care’ about anyone who was ‘offended or disgusted’ by them because they were only ever intended to provide comfort to others who have experienced a similar loss
Although Chrissy says she is still experiencing ‘complete and utter grief’ in the wake of Jack’s death, she praised all of the people who have shared words of support and love, revealing that she has been sent ‘thousands of letters’ from fans since her miscarriage.
‘I have thousands of letters written to me, and obviously it’s so painful to go through something like this as a woman, something that was inside your body that you were nurturing and taking care of, but obviously there’s a father involved and the support for the both of us has just been so beautiful, so incredible.’
She added that the experience has helped to renew her faith in people’s kindness, enabling her to see that ‘the world is inherently good’.
The heart-wrenching experience has also helped to bring the couple – who married in 2013 – closer together, as well as helping to strengthen their bond with their two children.
Coming together: The couple said that the support and love of their fans helped them to get through the heartbreaking experience – which has also strengthened their bond as a family
‘I just know that I love my wife more than ever,’ John said. ‘We’ve been through so many challenges together and they’ve made us strong, and I know that doesn’t always happen when people go through tragedy.
In the wake of their devastating loss, Chrissy and John have now partnered with Ronald McDonald House Charities, an initiative that works with families who have sick children, ensuring that they can remain together throughout treatment without having to worry about astronomical medical bills.
‘As long as you care for children, there’s nothing else you need to do aside from be a part of this initiative because this is bipartisan,’ Chrissy said of their decision to team up with the charity. ‘Loving your children and wanting the best for your children and wanting to keep families together for us is insanely important.
On Thanksgiving, she said the holiday was ‘much needed’ and revealed she ‘terribly missed working’ in the kitchen.
Cooking away: On Thanksgiving, she said the holiday was ‘much needed’ and revealed she ‘terribly missed working’ in the kitchen